One of the stops on the crazy train of my mind is that I have no real friends. Oh, sure, I have "friends" but I always feel like they don't actually like me and are more friends out of pity while waiting to leave me and go off and have fun with their true friends and that I can only keep them by buying them gifts. I also have a bizarre ranking system where I try to judge one's friendship for me based on how often I'm calling them to discuss random issues of woe vs how often they call me to do the same and is it a commiserating listen or a phone is on the counter while they play solitaire murmuring mmhmmm every now and again listen and so on.
Am lucky in that I have several people in my life (including my lovely co author) who throw things at my head and tell me to get over it, am stuck with them.
And yet, when it comes to new social circle situations, I begin flailing around like an unfortunate sea creature.
Since I've had TS, have been talking to my other dog having neighbors. Chat about the day, run after each others dogs when they run off (80% of the time it being my ridiculous dog doing the running) and so on. D&K and M&M went canoeing with the dogs over the weekend (I was invited but was off at the airshow) and had a grand old time and I was standing outside last night with the four of them saying we'd have to do it sometime in September when we're all around and D said hey, since we all talked about getting dinner, does tomorrow night work with everyone? And it did, so come 6pm, I am going to a hibachi restaurant. Now... I have issues with food. I like all the components (meat, veggies, fruit, chewy bread) but am not a fan of many flavors (bbq, peppers, cumin, sweet on entrees) so I end up being pretty picky.
I think it's still far too early to elaborate on all my weird ways to the group so I said the restaurant sounded great and walked inside to pull the menu up on my laptop to piece together a meal. It actually looks fairly good, the draw of the place is the whole hibachi grill atmosphere so I can get some hibachi chicken or steak and am reasonably confident that it won't be doused in some unknown sauce of yuck. Even though this is the month of no grocery store since I just finished paying all the bills early in a fit of just get it done already and let me feel the pain and I now have $153 in my checking account, I'll spend $25 of it on a night out for the sake of furthering my social acquaintances.
Fingers crossed that being the odd girl out with two other couples isn't an issue and that I don't choke on a flying onion.
So.
I have new friends.
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Awww Steph I love you! I hope you enjoy the dinner. The white sauce is good especially for your veggies :)!
Posted by: Stephanie Bakle | 11 August 2010 at 11:32 AM